Walk with me

I have been reading this book called Completely His by Channon Ethridge. Her web http://www.shannonethridge.com/

Well, this book is amazing. She tells how tragedy guided her to her intimate relationship with Christ. How we are the bride of Christ and how he longs for an intimate relationship with him. She says, "The Creator of the universe woos and pursues you with unimaginable passion. He longs for you to be completely His." I love this.

Christ wants me to be His bride! I have been slacking on my quiet time lately, I usually rise at 6am to read my bible and pray. So, last Saturday I actually rose and spend my time with Him. I read my book a little then my bible and started my prayer time, praying Psalm 46:10 "Be still and know that Iam God." I ask God to help me be still and listen to Him. Well, I just felt God saying "walk with me". I thought it kind of odd. I live on an air base and I couldn't exactly leave the kids at the house (my husband was already at work). So, reluctantly I grabbed a sweater and stepped outside. My dog, Koda meet me at the door. So I petted her and thought of how silly this was. Then I felt it again "walk with me". So, I began walking toward the back of our fence to look out at the field behind our home. Then I felt "stop", I did and then look down, there was a morning glory and some baby's breath, I thanked God for the flowers as I picked them up, now smiling from ear to ear. I continued my walk to the fence and then lend against the railing of my fence. The birds where chirping and flying over head. Two dragonflies catch my eyes, they were fly together like lovers, the one all of a sudden flew away. I thought of all the times I had left God and followed my own ways. I asked for forgiveness and that He would help me not to leave His will again. That I would please Him and glorify Him in my life. I started my way back to the house, thankful for all the things God had shown me and said to me. The birds sang and I sang with them "This is the day that the Lord has made I will rejoice and be glad in it". As I stepped into my home, I looked down at my flowers, and I felt Him say "your wedding bouquet, my dear." I am His bride.

That night we when to our usually Saturday night worship service. We had the Lord's supper. As I prayed and ponder my day, I remember what Shannon Ethridge said in her book, Completely His, she had watched a video series by Vander Laan called That the World May Know. In this series he explains how in biblical times a bride-to-be was given a cup of wine by the groom-to-be, saying "I offer you my life". At that moment, the potential bride had a decision to make. If she did not care to marry the man, she refused the cup. If she was willing to marry him, she would take the cup and drink from it. By her actions, she was saying, "I receive your life, and I give you mine in return." With these traditions in mind, with the Lord's supper. Jesus handed the cup of wine to each of His disciples that night, He was saying, in essence, "Will you marry me? Will you be My spiritual bride?" At that moment His followers had a decision to make. They could reject the cup and refuse Jesus' spiritual marriage proposal, or they could drink from it, receiving His life, and offering theirs to Him in return. (paraphrased from the book pg.35)

As I took my little cup of grape juice. With tears of joy, I accepted His marriage proposal. "Yes Lord, I will be your bride. I know I will not always be faithful, but when I stray bring me back to you. Help me to be your bride, wasted white as snow with no blemishes. I want to walk worthy of your calling. I love you Lord." Oh, how sweet our Lord is! I know I have a tendency to be unfaithful to Him, but God knew that, and yet He loved me still. We love because He first loved us. Seek Him! Be still and listen. God is waiting for you, as for me. God's blessings!

-God's Princess Carmen

About my family

I am so blessed. I am a wife of a wonderful man, Brock. He is in the Air Force and trains our future airmen. Meaning he is a MTI. I am so proud of him and I have so much respect for all he does for are family. He has sacrificed! He has served in Afghanistan for the freedom of our country. Most Americans can not understand this, because they have no idea of what war really is, they think this is political, well that's a different subject.

I have two wonderful girls. Taylor is 2years old. She is smart, energetic, lovely, and a true princess. She loves to dance, she is strong "like her daddy" as she says, and she loves to go see the cows at the grandparent's. She is such a delight to my life. My first born.

Kayla is 1year old. She has such personality and wants to be like her sister, yet she is so special and unique in her own way. She is a thinker. So smart. She is a little gift. I can not imagine all God has in store for them.

I am in school right now at UTSA. Go roadrunners! lol. I am planning to be a Physical Therapist, but lately every time I think of "plans" Ive made, it makes me laugh because every time I plan it doesn't turn out the way I thought, so I will take one step at a time and see where God leads me. Seeking him.

This is Brock and my song to our babies! Its pretty special.

Mark Harris - Find Your Wings

From the album The Line Between The Two

It's only for a moment you are mine to hold

The plans that heaven has for you

Will all too soon unfold

So many different prayers I'll pray

For all that you might do

But most of all I'll want to know

You're walking in the truth

And If I never told you I want you to know

As I watch you grow

Chorus:I pray that God would fill your heart with dreams

And that faith gives you the courage

To dare to do great things

I'm here for you whatever this life brings

So let my love give you roots

And help you find your wings

May passion be the wind

That leads you through your days

And may conviction keep you strong

Guide you on your way

May there be many moments

That make your life so sweet

Oh, but more than memories

Chorus:It's not living if you don't reach for the sky

I'll have tears as you take off

But I'll cheer as you fly

Growing

Hey everyone.
Isnt growing hard? I think it time for me to do some growing spiritually. God wants a relationship with all of us. Ive always know this and I have tried to have that relationship with him. But what does it mean to have a relationship with him? Lets look it up....(hold on, super Carmen to Webster Dictionary)
Ok I am back,
relationship means......»
1: the state of being related or interrelated relationship between the variables>
2: the relation connecting or binding participants in a relationship: as a: kinship b: a specific instance or type of kinship
3 a: a state of affairs existing between those having relations or dealings relationship with his family> b: a romantic or passionate attachment

Hmmmm, I like 3b a passionate attachment, wow. Thats what God wants? Who doesnt want passion? Women.... I know your all thinking it. Awh I am listening to the radio, K-Love, "Jesus, lover of my soul...." thats the song on right now! God is wonderful, wow how he speaks to us, if we only seek him.

1 John 3:1 says, "How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God!" My kids have a little sign in their room that says, "Princess" with this scripture on it. God is the King of Kings, and who are we as his children.... as women we are Princesses! I love that.

From the movie "The Princess Diaries",
"Me, a princess?"
"You are the legal heir."
"I never lead anyone."
"We will help you to be a princess, to rule. If you refuse to accept the throne then the kingdom will cease to exist as we know it."

sidenote: (Oh, watch "One night with the King" Its the story of Esther. What a women was she, wow.)

Dont you feel this way? I do. Me? a princess I am just a small town girl, what important role can I play? How can I be a princess? I grew up around pastures and cows...... well, the answer, God will do it for you.

Jeremiah 31:3-4 says, "I have loved you with an everlasting love; therefore, I have continued my faithfulness to you. Again, I will build you, and you shall be built..."

So, back to growing, its hard, but we are God's princesses! I am his princess and his is passionate about me, I am his!

Read: Ephesians 4:17-32, My bible title it "The New Life".

Ephesians 4:31-32 says, "Let all bitterness, and wrath and anger and clamor and slander be put away from you, along with all malice. Be kind to one another, tenderhearted, forgiving one anoter, as God in Christ forgave you."

Ouch! My toes just got step on, I am guilty. I have done this so many times. I have some growing pains!

Also a good read Phillipians 2:12-18 titled "Lights of the World.

Phil 2:13 says, "For it is God who works in you, both to will and to work for his good pleasure." Notice "HIS good pleasure", what!?! Its not about me! Yep, thats kind of hard to take sometimes.... I know I can get pretty selfish. I want what makes me happy, well, as Dr. Phil says "Hows that working for ya?" well its not.
Maybe if I give it to God, who created me, I can experience true happniess, I can! YES! Jeremiah 29: 11 says, "For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans for wholeness and not for evil, to give you a future and a hope." But dont stop there this best part is 29:12-13 "Then you will call upon me and come and pray to me, and I will hear you. You will seek me and find me. When you seek me with all your heart."
Oh, I love that part!? I am on an adverture to seek and to find, my God, who loves me with an everlasting love, to truely become the person HE created me to be. It wont be easy, it will be hard and I will look like a fool probably most of the time and as some say a hypocrite. But I will try my best to be Christlike. Thats all God really wants, our hearts! To give it all to him and try to be like him, and yes I will fail, lots of times, but I will, "press on toward the goal for the prize of the upward call of God in Christ Jesus. Let those of us who are mature think this way, and if in anything you think otherwise, God will reveal that also to you. Only let us hold true to what we have attained." Phil 3:14-16.

Wow, didnt know I had that much going on in there, lol. God is great and I love him very much, and I desire to know him more. Galatians 6:9 says, "And let us not grow weary of doing good, for in due season we will reap, if we do not give up." Press on, keep going!

Peace Out!
Carmen